A Thank You to those that Love Someone with Anxiety.

To those of you married to someone with an anxiety disorder, the parents, the siblings, the friends supporting people with a mental illness: this is for you.

I think it takes a special kind of person to love someone with anxiety, unconditionally.

As someone that has anxiety, I know just how much patience it takes to deal with loving me. It takes understanding, and a kind heart.

If you are loving someone through their mental illness, you are more of a hero than you know. Every hug, late night talk, and reassuring smile makes us feel a little more normal again.

To those of you that sit in silence with us when we can’t find the words: you are speaking volumes.

To those of you that treat us like a normal human being, because that’s what we are: you make us feel sane.

To those of you that take the time to actually listen when we just need an ear: you’re helping us to get our emotions and feelings off our chests.

Living with a mental illness can be frustrating, challenging, lonely, and sometimes unbearable. But, having at least one person that knows just what to do, can make a huge difference in our lives.

You may not understand why we are the way we are, but you love us anyway. And, that is impressive. You will probably get aggravated with us. (Hell, we get aggravated with ourselves!) But, you don’t leave. You always stick by us. And, that is impressive. You show us compassion, even on the days we don’t want it. And, that is impressive.

YOU are impressive.

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Why Treating Yourself is Important

Treating yourself is essential for good mental health.

I’m not talking about spending $1,000 at your local makeup store, or buying $20 bath bombs. (But if that’s what you want to do, go for it!) I’m talking about taking fifteen minutes out of your day.

“But, fifteen minutes isn’t enough time to do anything.” FALSE.

Here are five things you can do each day in fifteen minutes or less to help relieve stress and improve mental health:

1. Meditate or pray.

Taking 15 minutes of silence can do a lot more than you would think. Spend time with yourself, and your thoughts. Pray for your needs. Concentrate, and just breathe.

2. Take a bath.

(If you’re not a bath person, showers are fine, too.) Make sure to use all your smell good bath products and essential oils. Putting some Lavendar in your bath is great for relaxation.

3. Do Yoga.

You don’t have to be experienced to do a Yoga routine. There are plenty of beginner videos that are great on YouTube. If you aren’t into Yoga, just take some time to stretch your muscles and relax your body.

4. Listen to music.

Music is a big part of my life. It doesn’t matter what mood I’m in, I always want to listen to music. It’s so therapeutic. I have different playlists for my different moods. It ranges from Broadway to alternative rock, and everything in between.

5. Go outside.

Fresh air and sunshine can make a big difference in your mood. Go for a walk around the block, or just soak up the sun on your deck. Take in that Vitamin D!

A lot of people think they can’t take care of themselves because they don’t have the time or money. But, it is so important to take that small amount of time out of your day to take care of yourself. You only get one body, and one mind. Make sure you treat it right!

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10 Reasons St. Louis is a Beautiful City

I’m going to start this list off with the obvious:

1. The Arch.

This beautiful Gateway to the West is visible from almost every point in the city. It’s unique and huge. People from all over the world stop by St. Louis to visit it. I love seeing a crowd of diversity every time I’m there.

2. Affordability.

There is so much to do in St. Louis for little to no cost. Forest Park alone has a full week’s worth of activities. From the beautiful zoo, to the museums, to the Science Center, and even our outdoor theatre: The Muny.

3. Character.

Everywhere you go downtown, you will find huge amounts of character. There are so many beautiful buildings, parks, monuments, and homes. The structure is just amazing.

4. Laclede’s Landing.

I’m giving this it’s own number. From The Old Spaghetti Factory, to the wax museum, this area is one of a kind. You can walk on beautiful cobble stone streets, take a horse drawn carriage ride, or walk down to the river. It’s perfect for a night out.

5. The Nightlife

While St. Louis isn’t a huge city, it definitely lights up at night. Everyone needs to drive down Grand Avenue after the sunsets. And, of course, see a show at one of the theatres there!

6. The Views.

There’s just something about being on a roof top in the city. It’s so peaceful to me. There’s something interesting to see everywhere you turn.

7. Kiener Plaza

This lovely park downtown is great for the family. It has a wonderful view of The Arch and Courthouse. There’s places for the kids to play, and an awesome statue park. At Christmas time, they light the giant tree and have a skating rink!

8. Small Town Vibes

There are so many one of a kind, small businesses in the St. Louis area. Seriously! Just Google them!

9. The St. Louis City Museum

Again, I’m giving this one it’s own number. This place is a million square feet (slight exaggeration) of pure awesome! You could easily spend the entire day here and not even see it all. It’s filled with jungle gyms, hidden passageways, arcades, and restaraunts.

10. The People.

Last but, not least I’m giving a shutout to the ones that make the city what it is: the residents, workers, and tourists of the city. 🖤

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Five Quotes from ‘Alice in Wonderland’ that are Actually Great Pieces of Advice

If I’m being completely honest here, I have to tell you that the movie, “Alice in Wonderland” scared me to death as a child! But, now that I’ve re-watched, as an adult, I actually found that there are pretty solid pieces of Advice throughout the film. 


It’s ok to not where you’re going or where you’ll end up at all times. The road you’re taking will eventually get you where you need to be. 


 Don’t beat yourself for being “different” or “weird”. Everbody has their own quirks. We’re all unique, and that’s a great thing! 


I personally love this one. It’s a reminder for me to keep going and keeping growing as a person. Always try to be better than the person you were yesterday. 


Don’t judge others. We all have our problems. We’re all human and we all make mistakes. 


This quote reminds me to use my imagination and get inspired. Growing up doesn’t mean we need to lose our imagination. That’s what makes art. 

 There are so many more great quotable moments in “Alice in Wonderland”, but these are just a few of my personal favorites. I think we can all learn a little something from each character in the movie. It’s alright to be different; you just have to love yourself. ♡ 
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So many people suffer from Anxiety Disorder. It’s time to speak up about it and start telling our stories! 

To those that don’t struggle with this disorder, it can be hard to understand. Sometimes verbally explaining it, just doesn’t get the point across. And, I get it. It IS hard to understand. I have it, and don’t even understand it sometimes. 

People that don’t get it, may say things like:

“Just pull yourself together.” 

“Get over it.”

“It can’t be that bad.”

Or my personal favorite: “But, you don’t LOOK sick.” 

I don’t think this comes from a bad place. But, this is common. I do think there needs to be more awareness around the subject. A light needs to be shed. We need to be able to talk about it without feeling ashamed or embarrassed. We need to make people understand. 

Anxiety is so much more than having your random panic attack once in a while. It’s a daily struggle. 

You feel as if you’re drowning…


Unable to sleep…

You have dark thoughts…


You can’t breathe…

And, you can’t escape it…

This really doesn’t even scratch the surface. But, it does show a small portion of the daily struggles felt by someone suffering with Anxiety Disorder. 

If you have anxiety: 

Do not be afraid to talk about it. Do not feel ashamed. Do not be embarrassed to ask for help. Your story matters.

If you don’t have anxiety:

Please try to understand that even though we don’t look sick on the outside, doesn’t mean we aren’t struggling. Don’t be quick to judge. 
#endthestigma #speakup

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Be an Overcomer.

I sometimes care too much what other people may think, because my mind has convinced me I’m being judged. 

I have had thoughts so bad, and so dark, I won’t say them out loud. 

I have locked myself in my house for days on end. 

I have believed my brain when it told me I was crazy. I was useless. 

I have cried. I’ve screamed. I’ve been silent because my mind told me I couldn’t talk to anyone. They wouldn’t understand.

My brain can be a dark place because of my anxiety. When people ask, “what does anxiety feel like?” I tell them it’s like having a constant all out war inside my own mind. It’s chaos. It’s having 278373 tabs open on your computer, and not being able to close any of them. It’s straight fear. 

Some days, I look back at the hell my own brain has put me through, and I can only thank God I’ve made it this far. I am not going to lie to you and tell you I’ve never had a suicidal thought. I have. I’ve had them more times than I care to admit. And, everytime the thought crossed my mind, I’d pray. 

I’m also not going to lie to you and tell you I’ve got my crap together, now. I don’t.  But, I do have perspective. I have faith. Faith in God, faith in medication, faith in myself. It’s the reason I wake up everyday.

 I am so thankful for my life. I consider myself to be quite blessed. I won’t let my disorder steal my joy away from me. It cannot take my life. 


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Why I’m not Making a New Year’s Resolution

It’s that time of year again! Time for all the resolution posts to come flooding in. I admire all you people that can make a resolution and stick to it! I, however, am just not one of those people. 

I have decided that 2018 is going to be an awesome year. I will try to make the best of every situation, and enjoy every second of life. But, no resolutions for me. Why? 
 The Pressure. 

Every year I make a resolution, then feel so obligated to keep it. Not to mention, people on social media saw that resolution, too. And, you know they’re watching. (Slightly joking, here) 

Sometimes, I make a resolution just because it’s what you’re “suppose” to do. Not this year! I’m livin’ the carefree life! 

I think I’ve just come to the conclusion, that life is too short to waste it on resolutions I may or may not keep. So, instead of making a resolution, I’m making a lifestyle change. I will be optimistic, excited, and patient with life. I will try to maintain a positive outlook, even when negative things are happening. 

I want to be the positive aspect in other people’s lives. I want to be a light for those in the dark. 

New Year, new me? No. Same me, but, with some slight improvements. 

So, here’s to a new year! Here’s to a fresh start for everyone. Here’s to making memories that last, and spending time wisely. And, here’s to all of you, who ARE making a resolution. I hope you see it through! But, if you don’t, that’s o.k., too. 

Don’t be so focused on the pressure of keeping your resolution, that you forget to live the best life you can! 

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