Five Daily Thoughts of an Anxious Girl

If you’re new here, I struggle with AnxietyDisorder. I’m a hot mess 97% Of the time. If you’re an Anxious person, you should be able to relate to these five thoughts I have on a daily basis: 

I’m going to mess something up today. 

This thought isn’t specific to any certain thing. But, I always have the thought in the back of my head. I’m constantly worried I’m going to mess something up, embarrass myself, or make someone mad. I can’t help it. It’s just the way my brain is wired. It’s not that I’m a negative person. I’m quite the opposite, actually. Anxiety tends to cause insecurities. 

What if I’m a burden? 

I’m constantly annoying myself with my anxiety. I even want to get away from me, so I can’t imagine how others feel. Every time I have a panic attack, or a bad day, I feel like I’m just being annoying, or putting un-necessary stress on my loved ones. 

Why am I so weird?! 

Seriously. Why can’t I just be a normal person for FIVE MINUTES?

I am too overwhelmed. 

This is probably my most frequent thought. The smallest things overwhelm me: two different noises at one time, crowds, driving in a new area, going grocery shopping…. not kidding. EVEN SHOPPING. There are multiple times a day when I have to step back and take a “breather” and regroup. It’s not as fun as it sounds. 

Tomorrow will be a better day. 

No matter how bad a day I’m having, I always have hope for tomorrow. People living with AnxietyDisorder get a bad rep. We get labeled as pessimistic or negative. That’s not the case at all. I’m a very optimistic person, in general. I see the good in everyone, I hope for the best, and I aim high. Each night I tell myelf, “Tomorrow is a new day, and I’m going to crush it.” Sometimes, I don’t. But, that o.k., because a lot of times, I do. 

Life is a roller coaster when you’re living with Anxiety. You just have to learn to enjoy being on top. You have to take in the view and remember it. Just know that, even though the ride goes down, it always comes back up. 
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An Open Letter to the Wondering Soul

Here’s to all you travelers, gypsy souls, free spirits, artists, creatives, and day dreamers. 

This one is for you. 

Do not let people steal your sense of adventure. 

Being adventurous is a good trait. Don’t be convinced otherwise. It is o.k. to want to see and try new things. Always let your soul wonder. Never stop dreaming about your next adventure. 

The wanderers are the ones to be envied. Not everyone has it in them to be spontaneous. A gypsy soul is beautiful. 

Keep on creating. 

I’ve learned that nothing spurs my creativity as an artist, more than going on adventures. I get inspired by so many things. Even the smallest of adventures can help to create something magnificent. 

If taking a walk through the woods inspires you to create art, then start walking.

If going to the city brings your imagination to life, then go. 

If the grocery store gets your juices flowing, then make a shopping list!

Do whatever it takes to create YOUR art. It’s worth it. 

Don’t let life steal your joy. 

The routine of everyday life can really way heavy on the Wondering soul. It can make you feel complacent and bored. 

Find beauty in the everyday things. Make something unusual out of the ordinary. Don’t let your day job stop you from achieving your day dream. 

There are so many things to be seen in this world. In fact, there is plenty to be explored in your own city, town, and backyard! 

Don’t let your spirit leave, and don’t allow your light to be put out. The world would be so boring without the adventurers. Just think of everything that would have gone undiscovered. 

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A Bright, Sunshiny Day

Hello friends! I am excited about this blog! I have been nominated by my friend, Stephanie Eiler, for the Sunshine Blogger Award! You can see her posts at: citrusandsun.com (Thank you so much, Stephanie!)

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What is the Sunshine Blogger Award? 

It’s an award given to bloggers, by bloggers. To receive the award, the person nominating you must think that your blog is inspiring, positive, and/or uplifting.

I am excited, because, this is the third award I’ve been nominated for in the short time I’ve been blogging. It means so much to be recognized by the blogging community. I am so lucky to be a part of it!

So, once again, THANK YOU, Stephanie. You made my day by nominating me.

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As part of the award, I must answer questions asked by my nominator. Here are Stephanie’s questions:

1. What do you love most about blogging? 

2. How did you come up with the name of your blog? 

3. Who is your favorite musical artist/band of all time?

4. What is your favorite place you have traveled to or visited?

5. Describe one of your favorite memories.

6. If you could have a conversation with anyone, living or not, who would it be and why?

7. What inspires you?

8. Describe your favorite space to work on your writing.

9, What is your ideal way to spend a morning when you do not have to work? 

10. What is a movie that you could watch over and over again? 

11. What is your favorite blog post you’ve ever written and why? Show us the link!

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MY ANSWERS: 

  1. I think what I love most about blogging is being able to help others struggling with Anxiety Disorders, or other mental illnesses. I want people to know they’re not alone in the fight, and if I can do something I love to do in the process, it’s a win-win!
  2. The Anxious Photog- I’m both anxious and a photographer. It’s not deeper than that. LOL.
  3. This is hard one! I love music so much. I honestly do not have an answer to this. I love everything from Queen, to Lady Gaga, to Pentatonix! (And everything in between.)
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  4. I would have to say Chicago is at the top of my list. I love everything about that city, and can’t wait to go back again!
  5. To this day, my wedding day remains my favorite memory. I got married at 18, right out of high school. That was seven years ago. I can’t imagine living life without my husband by my side. He is my rock. My wedding day went as perfectly as I could’ve hoped, and I’ll forever cherish it. 
  6. I would have to say the answer to this question would be: My grandmother. She passed away 11 years ago, and life’s never been the same since. I would love to just talk to her about everything and everyone in my life.
  7. So many things inspire me. I see art in everything. I always say that the weirdest things give me inspiration. For example: an outfit, a flower, a clock (yes, a clock), etc.
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  8. My favorite spot to work is “my nest”. It’s my spot on the couch with my dogs laying beside me, and music playing.
  9. Honestly, I don’t work any mornings. I’m a photographer, and make my own schedule. But, on the days my husband is off, I love to spend the mornings relaxing and watching one of our shows before we start the day.
  10. My absolute favorite movie is RENT. I can put that on repeat and watch it all day long. In fact, that’s what I do on my house cleaning days. I can listen to the soundtrack everyday.
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  11. My favorite blog post would probably have to be: “The “S” word is Important. Use it.” You can see it here: https://theanxiousphotog.blog/2017/05/27/i-love-the-s-word/I would like to nominate a couple people for this award:
    1. Zoey Schvan at http://www.zoeyvaluated.com
    2. Rhandilynn Holman at simplyradiant.wordpress.com

Here are your questions: 

1. How long have you been blogging?

2. What made you start blogging?

3. What is your favorite topic/category to blog about? 

4. What is your favorite song at the moment?

5. What other hobbies do you have?

6. Who inspires you most in life?

7. What is your favorite weekend activity? 

8. What is your favorite T.V. show?

9. Where do you want to go at least once in your life?

10. Are you an early bird or a night owl?

11. What blog post would you like to share with everyone? 
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Photography and my Anxiety Disorder 

I have a lot of things that help me with my anxiety: a wonderful husband, a supportive family, great friends, home remedies, and of course, the right medication. But, I want to tell you about how my passion for photography has helped me cope with my disorder. 

I was diagnosed with Anxiety Disorder as a teenager. About a year after the diagnosis is when I picked up photography. (Here’s a shout out to my photographer mom that introduced me to it.) I’ve been doing it about nine years now. To say it’s my passion would be an understatement. It is a huge part of my life. My camera goes everywhere I go. 

Here’s why: whenever I feel an anxiety attack coming on, I can pick up my camera, and escape both reality, and the thoughts inside my head. It allows me to have a break from the panic. 

On top of that, it allows me to create art whenever I want. 

Photography is now my full time job. It is my way of contributing to my husband’s salary, and I can’t express how thankful I am to be able to do what I love for a living. 

But, it’s not just an income for me. It’s a way of life. I don’t just do it because I get paid to do it. My “passion projects” as I call them, are my favorite things to do. I don’t get paid to do them, but I do get to create art, and work through my anxiety. It’s therapy for me. Whether there’s money in it, or not, I will always have my camera ready. 

“Photography is therapy for the eyes, mind, and soul.”

When you suffer from Anxiety disorder, (Or ANY mental disorder, for that matter), and you can find something that helps, you do it. You do it as much as you can. 

Art heals. That, I know to be true. It’s one of the most therapeutic things on Earth. I can’t imagine life without it. In fact, it’s amazing just how many people have been effected by art. 

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Three ways People with a Mental Illness are Asking for Help without Actually Asking

Each year, about 42.5 million Americans are suffering with a mental illness. That’s nearly one in every five. This could mean Anxiety Disorder, Bipolar Disorder, Chronic Depression, Schizophrenia, etc.

Mental illnesses tend to be silent killers. People will fight with their sickness, without telling anyone. It’s not something you can physically see, but is VERY real. For those not suffering from a mental disorder, it may be easy to overlook the signs that a loved one is suffering.

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How do you know if someone is screaming for help? Here are three signs to look for:

Becoming Distant:
If someone is suffering with their depression, anxiety, etc., they might tend to make themselves distant from loved ones. They will become quiet, and keep to themselves. This doesn’t necessarily mean they don’t want to be helped. It may just mean that they are afraid to ask for it. They may be scared of being a burden. Don’t look past it. Reach out to them.

Acting out: 

If your loved ones aren’t acting like themselves, there could be a good reason. Sometimes, people “act out” in hopes to bring attention to the fact that they need help. They may not come out and tell you directly. A lot of people are quick to judge, and assume there isn’t a good reason behind a person’s negative actions. But, sometimes, there are very good reasons. Offering help might make more of a difference than you think.

 

Hinting around:

Sometimes people are afraid, or embarrassed to come out and tell you that they’re suffering. They may hint around about it when talking to you. They won’t say it out right, but you should be able to notice. With it being the age of Social Media, you can also pay attention to your loved one’s posts.

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Suicide is the last scream for help when it comes to this. It is the leading cause of premature death among people with mental illnesses. Don’t wait until it’s too late to pay attention. Don’t wait until your loved one is gone to realize they’re suffering. Look at them. Love them. Talk to them.

 

If you are struggling with your mental illness, PLEASE GET HELP. Do not be afraid to ask for it. Just know that there is always someone that will listen. There is someone that cares about you. I CARE ABOUT YOU.

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I have Anxiety Disorder AND a Superpower. 

Empathy: The ability to share and understand the feelings of another.

Today, my cousin (and one of my best friends), Amy, sent me an article about the superpowers those with Anxiety Disorder posess. You can see the article here: http://awarenessact.com/ppeople-with-anxiety-disorders-are-hiding-these-5-superpowers-backed-by-science/

The thing that stood out the most to me, was the fact that those of us who struggle with Anxiety Disorder, also possess an increased of empathy. 

I Feel like this is so true! I have always fed off of the energy of others, and, to go even further, the energy of places. 

I never really thought of this as a “superpower”, or even something out of the norm. I never gave much of a second thought to it at all, or linked it to my Anxiety Disorder. 

But, after talking to people that both do, and don’t, suffer from Anxiety, there does seem to be a pattern. 

I, personally, love the GIFT of empathy. I am thankful to be able to relate and understand others. I feel more connected to people. I think empathy and compassion go hand in hand. 

I have a love and appreciation for people in all walks of life. I feel for those who are hurting, and I’m happy for those who are happy. 

The article also stated that this who have Anxiety Disorder also have the ability to see the energy in others, have “life-saving instinct”, a heightened IQ, and are able to see through lies. 

Think about it. All of these “superpowers” stemming from a disorder. There are so many good things that can come from something “bad”. 

Some days, I’m thankful for my disorder. Without it, I wouldn’t be the person I am today. Sure, there are bad days, but there have been so many times I got to help others through difficult times. (Even if it was just lending an ear.) 

If you are struggling with the fact that you have Anxiety Disorder, try to turn it around and make it into something awesome. Turn your disorder into a superpower, and use it for good! 

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Coping with the Diagnosis of Anxiety Disorder

Just because you’ve been diagnosed with Anxiety Disorder, doesn’t mean you’re a different person than you were before. 

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First and foremost: If you’ve been diagnosed with Anxiety Disorder, do not let anyone tell you, or make you feel like it’s nothing. It is something. It’s a serious disorder. Don’t let other people tell you how to handle it. If you need medication, take it. If medication doesn’t work for you, then don’t take it. If natural remedies are what you need, then do them. Do what YOU need to do to help yourself. They say when there’s turbulence in a plane, to put your oxygen mask on first. This is good advice. You have to help yourself first sometimes, to be able to take care of others.

Your mental health is vital to living a good life. Living in a bad mental state can lead to a bad physical state. Stress can cause so much damage. Make sure to take the necessary steps for keeping your mind as healthy as it can be.

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Second of all, while you should take your diagnosis seriously, you should not let it rule your life. You are so much more than your disorder. It is only a small part of what makes you, you. Your brain may be wired a little differently than most people’s, but that doesn’t mean it’s broken.

I have Anxiety Disorder, but I am also a wife, a daughter, a sister, a photographer, an adventurer, and a believer. And, even all of those things are just a fraction of what makes me who I am.

There’s a lot to you, too. Don’t let go of who you are. Don’t drop everything else, and cater to your disorder.

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Lastly, just keep breathing. Take it one day at a time. Don’t panic because the future seems scary. Don’t think about the bad days that might happen. Think about all the good days you have ahead of you. And, there WILL be good days. Lots of them.

Getting diagnosed with Anxiety Disorder isn’t the end of the world for you, even though it may feel like it sometimes. The world; YOUR world, will keep turning.

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