Keeping Peace amongst the Chaos

Let’s not pretend the world isn’t completely crazy right now. There’s chaos, anxiety, and uncertainty everywhere. I’ve said, “This is so crazy”, a crazy amount of times over the last couple weeks.
I’ve closed my small business down due to the virus, then watched as all my fellow small businesses fell, one by one. I’ve watched the scary numbers climb everyday. I’ve seen the panic buying first hand. I’ve heard the anxiety filled questions from people all around me. I’ve seen and heard all the bad these last two weeks, that’s for sure.
But, I’ve also embraced the good. I’ve searched out the positivities. And, while I’ve had my fair share of anxieties and fears, I’ve also found some peace. Here’s how I’m clinging to the good:

– Going outside everyday
Getting fresh air is so important. Watching the flowers bloom, and the sun shine, brings a sense of normalcy to it all. It’s comforting knowing that the outside hasn’t changed. The Earth is going on as usual. The seasons are changing, and the colors are starting to burst. Go out and breathe it all in.

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– Meditation
I’ve never really participated in meditation, but since this all started, it’s been such a help. I found an app called “Meditopia”. It’s $4.99/mo, and it offers so much. I highly recommend. It includes hundreds of guided meditations, blogs, daily inspirations, stories, challenges, etc. I use it when I have trouble sleeping, when I’m having an anxiety attack, when I feel depressed, and when I just need to take a breather.

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– Staying in contact with loved ones
We can’t just hang out with our friends right now, but it’s important to check in with your people. Text, call, Facetime. Do whatever you need to, to keep the sense of feeling connected.

– Make a daily activity list
This helps to give you a routine. I make a list of things to get done every morning, even if those things are trivial. I try to do at least one chore a day, one activity with my husband, and one creative/artistic activity. It give a sense of purpose and structure.

– Remind yourself that this is all temporary
Yes, it’s a scary time. We don’t know when it’s all going to be over. We don’t know the end results. But, one thing we do know, is that it WILL NOT last forever. Life will return to normal. We will come out on the other side. You will hug your loved ones again. You will return to work. You will be able to do regular social activities again. You WILL get to the other side. Repeat that to yourself as many times as you need.

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LIfe is a little scary right now. And, everything listed above is just what has been helping me. I can’t guarantee it will help you. But, it is possible to find peace amongst the chaos right now. You may just have to reach down as deep as you can.
Please stay home and stay safe during this time. Much love. ♥

You and Your Disorder: A Guide to Living Your Best Life.

I don’t know who needs to hear this, but you don’t have to be ashamed of your mental disorder. You can be proud of who you are. It’s perfectly fine to accept ALL of who you are. This isn’t a one-step process. It takes more than just saying you’re going to accept your flaws, for it to happen. You have to really reach inside yourself, dig down deep.

 

Step One:

Admit you have a mental disorder. This seems obvious, but trust me, it’s really not that simple. I lived in denial for like, YEARS. I wanted to be “normal” so badly, I just ignored it, and hoped it would just go away on its own. Spoiler alert: it didn’t. Here’s what it DID do: kept heating up inside me until it boiled over. Eventually, it was spilling out everywhere. Once the pot boils over, the water goes all over the place. It makes a huge mess, and it smells bad. The thing I’ve noticed is… most people let it get to that point before admitting their disorder exists. But, that doesn’t have to be the case. You can admit that the disorder is real, and keep all of your water in the pot.

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Step Two:

 

Don’t panic. Now, that you’ve admitted to having the mental disorder, you may start to freak out. The bad thoughts will probably start to creep in. You may worry that your life won’t be the same anymore. You may feel like a freak. You’ll more than likely feel alone. But, you’re not. You are not alone. And, your life doesn’t have to drastically change. You are the same you as you were before the diagnosis. The fear can try to take over, but don’t let it. You are stronger than your disorder. Believe that. It may be a part of who you are, but it is not ALL of who you are.

 

Step Three:

 

Talk to someone. Keeping all your fears to yourself isn’t healthy. You never need to feel like a burden for talking about your disorder. Keeping it in can eat you alive. Trust me, this is coming from experience. At the very least, write it down. Get it out of your head and on to a page. It helps.

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Step Four:

 

Accept it. This is a cliché thing to say, but it’s important. Knowing you have a disorder, and accepting it, are two very different things. You can live a healthy life, alongside your disorder IF you accept the fact that it’s not going anywhere. You WILL have bad days. You WILL feel hopeless sometimes. You WILL have the disorder forever, because there is no cure. And, you WILL also have good days. Embrace the bad, and cherish the good.

 

 

Step Five:

Love yourself. This is the last step. And, the most important. Your disorder does NOT define you. You are valuable and should never doubt your worth. It is not lessened because of any diagnosis you’ve received.

 

Will following these steps make all your problems go away? No. But, they can help. Sometimes, all you need is to be reminded of how important you are. You need to know that a diagnosis on paper, doesn’t change the person you are on the inside.

You are going to get discouraged sometimes. You’re going to feel scared, and sometimes alone. Some days will be harder than others. Just don’t forget about the good days. Hold onto them. Look forward to them. Thoroughly enjoy them.

And, above all, always remember to remind yourself that you are not alone.

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Five Quotes from ‘Alice in Wonderland’ that are Actually Great Pieces of Advice

If I’m being completely honest here, I have to tell you that the movie, “Alice in Wonderland” scared me to death as a child! But, now that I’ve re-watched, as an adult, I actually found that there are pretty solid pieces of Advice throughout the film. 

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It’s ok to not where you’re going or where you’ll end up at all times. The road you’re taking will eventually get you where you need to be. 

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 Don’t beat yourself for being “different” or “weird”. Everbody has their own quirks. We’re all unique, and that’s a great thing! 

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I personally love this one. It’s a reminder for me to keep going and keeping growing as a person. Always try to be better than the person you were yesterday. 

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Don’t judge others. We all have our problems. We’re all human and we all make mistakes. 

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This quote reminds me to use my imagination and get inspired. Growing up doesn’t mean we need to lose our imagination. That’s what makes art. 


 There are so many more great quotable moments in “Alice in Wonderland”, but these are just a few of my personal favorites. I think we can all learn a little something from each character in the movie. It’s alright to be different; you just have to love yourself. ♡ 
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Be an Overcomer.

I sometimes care too much what other people may think, because my mind has convinced me I’m being judged. 


I have had thoughts so bad, and so dark, I won’t say them out loud. 


I have locked myself in my house for days on end. 


I have believed my brain when it told me I was crazy. I was useless. 


I have cried. I’ve screamed. I’ve been silent because my mind told me I couldn’t talk to anyone. They wouldn’t understand.

My brain can be a dark place because of my anxiety. When people ask, “what does anxiety feel like?” I tell them it’s like having a constant all out war inside my own mind. It’s chaos. It’s having 278373 tabs open on your computer, and not being able to close any of them. It’s straight fear. 


Some days, I look back at the hell my own brain has put me through, and I can only thank God I’ve made it this far. I am not going to lie to you and tell you I’ve never had a suicidal thought. I have. I’ve had them more times than I care to admit. And, everytime the thought crossed my mind, I’d pray. 


I’m also not going to lie to you and tell you I’ve got my crap together, now. I don’t.  But, I do have perspective. I have faith. Faith in God, faith in medication, faith in myself. It’s the reason I wake up everyday.


 I am so thankful for my life. I consider myself to be quite blessed. I won’t let my disorder steal my joy away from me. It cannot take my life. 


I HAVE OVERCAME. I AM STILL OVERCOMING. AND, I WILL OVERCOME. 


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I’m going to start this blog off by saying that there is nothing wrong with taking medication for your anxiety or mental disorders. I, myself, take medication. But, I try my hardest to control my panic attacks without it, if at all possible.

Here are seven things that have seemed to help me:

Essential Oils:

I started using essential oils about a year ago. They have made a HUGE difference. I have to admit, I was skeptical at first, but now I’m a total believer. My three favorites are: Peppermint (helps with Anxiety, headaches, and nausea), Bergamot (primarily for anxiety), and Lavender (helps you sleep). 

 Going Outside:

 There is just something about fresh air that helps to calm me down. This works the best at night. The combination of night air, stars, and the sound of crickets, soothes me. 

 Talking to Someone: 

Sometimes, getting your anxiety “off your chest” is all you need. My go-to person is my husband. Find someone that will let you vent, without judging, and offer advice when you need it. If you’re like me, you dont always want advice; you just want a listening ear. If you feel like you absolutely can’t talk to anyone, keep a journal. Getting it out of your mind and out into the open really does help. 

Also know, that you can always talk to me. I’m just a message away. 

Weighted Blankets:

These aren’t for everyone. I have definitely had good experiences with mine, though. If you’re not familiar with weighted blankets, they come in different sizes. They are heavy and put pressure on you, almost simulating the feeling of a hug. Here’s a link with more info:  https://www.healthline.com/health/weighted-blanket-for-anxiety#overview1

Finding Your “Safe Place”:

For me personally, this is curled up on my couch, watching F.R.I.E.N.D.S. It’s different for everyone. 

If you’re out and can’t access your safe place, picture it in your mind until you feel yourself calming down. 

Music: 

Listening to music takes you away from the stress that’s giving you anxiety. It gives your brain something to concentrate on, without having to concentrate too hard. Many times, when we go into a Panic Attack, we try to take our mind off of it by doing something strenuous. This can put even more stress on the brain, and make the anxiety worse. 

Music is a great way to escape. 

Breathe:

I mean, really breathe. Concentrate on taking deep, slow breathes. Breathe in. Count to 10. Breathe out. Count to 10. Keep it steady and even. When you regulate your breathing, your heart rate will follow. 

The very most important thing to know is that you’re not alone. You are never alone. 
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