A Thank You to those that Love Someone with Anxiety.

To those of you married to someone with an anxiety disorder, the parents, the siblings, the friends supporting people with a mental illness: this is for you.

I think it takes a special kind of person to love someone with anxiety, unconditionally.

As someone that has anxiety, I know just how much patience it takes to deal with loving me. It takes understanding, and a kind heart.

If you are loving someone through their mental illness, you are more of a hero than you know. Every hug, late night talk, and reassuring smile makes us feel a little more normal again.

To those of you that sit in silence with us when we can’t find the words: you are speaking volumes.

To those of you that treat us like a normal human being, because that’s what we are: you make us feel sane.

To those of you that take the time to actually listen when we just need an ear: you’re helping us to get our emotions and feelings off our chests.

Living with a mental illness can be frustrating, challenging, lonely, and sometimes unbearable. But, having at least one person that knows just what to do, can make a huge difference in our lives.

You may not understand why we are the way we are, but you love us anyway. And, that is impressive. You will probably get aggravated with us. (Hell, we get aggravated with ourselves!) But, you don’t leave. You always stick by us. And, that is impressive. You show us compassion, even on the days we don’t want it. And, that is impressive.

YOU are impressive.

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10 Reasons St. Louis is a Beautiful City

I’m going to start this list off with the obvious:

1. The Arch.

This beautiful Gateway to the West is visible from almost every point in the city. It’s unique and huge. People from all over the world stop by St. Louis to visit it. I love seeing a crowd of diversity every time I’m there.

2. Affordability.

There is so much to do in St. Louis for little to no cost. Forest Park alone has a full week’s worth of activities. From the beautiful zoo, to the museums, to the Science Center, and even our outdoor theatre: The Muny.

3. Character.

Everywhere you go downtown, you will find huge amounts of character. There are so many beautiful buildings, parks, monuments, and homes. The structure is just amazing.

4. Laclede’s Landing.

I’m giving this it’s own number. From The Old Spaghetti Factory, to the wax museum, this area is one of a kind. You can walk on beautiful cobble stone streets, take a horse drawn carriage ride, or walk down to the river. It’s perfect for a night out.

5. The Nightlife

While St. Louis isn’t a huge city, it definitely lights up at night. Everyone needs to drive down Grand Avenue after the sunsets. And, of course, see a show at one of the theatres there!

6. The Views.

There’s just something about being on a roof top in the city. It’s so peaceful to me. There’s something interesting to see everywhere you turn.

7. Kiener Plaza

This lovely park downtown is great for the family. It has a wonderful view of The Arch and Courthouse. There’s places for the kids to play, and an awesome statue park. At Christmas time, they light the giant tree and have a skating rink!

8. Small Town Vibes

There are so many one of a kind, small businesses in the St. Louis area. Seriously! Just Google them!

9. The St. Louis City Museum

Again, I’m giving this one it’s own number. This place is a million square feet (slight exaggeration) of pure awesome! You could easily spend the entire day here and not even see it all. It’s filled with jungle gyms, hidden passageways, arcades, and restaraunts.

10. The People.

Last but, not least I’m giving a shutout to the ones that make the city what it is: the residents, workers, and tourists of the city. 🖤

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Five Quotes from ‘Alice in Wonderland’ that are Actually Great Pieces of Advice

If I’m being completely honest here, I have to tell you that the movie, “Alice in Wonderland” scared me to death as a child! But, now that I’ve re-watched, as an adult, I actually found that there are pretty solid pieces of Advice throughout the film. 


It’s ok to not where you’re going or where you’ll end up at all times. The road you’re taking will eventually get you where you need to be. 


 Don’t beat yourself for being “different” or “weird”. Everbody has their own quirks. We’re all unique, and that’s a great thing! 


I personally love this one. It’s a reminder for me to keep going and keeping growing as a person. Always try to be better than the person you were yesterday. 


Don’t judge others. We all have our problems. We’re all human and we all make mistakes. 


This quote reminds me to use my imagination and get inspired. Growing up doesn’t mean we need to lose our imagination. That’s what makes art. 

 There are so many more great quotable moments in “Alice in Wonderland”, but these are just a few of my personal favorites. I think we can all learn a little something from each character in the movie. It’s alright to be different; you just have to love yourself. ♡ 
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So many people suffer from Anxiety Disorder. It’s time to speak up about it and start telling our stories! 

To those that don’t struggle with this disorder, it can be hard to understand. Sometimes verbally explaining it, just doesn’t get the point across. And, I get it. It IS hard to understand. I have it, and don’t even understand it sometimes. 

People that don’t get it, may say things like:

“Just pull yourself together.” 

“Get over it.”

“It can’t be that bad.”

Or my personal favorite: “But, you don’t LOOK sick.” 

I don’t think this comes from a bad place. But, this is common. I do think there needs to be more awareness around the subject. A light needs to be shed. We need to be able to talk about it without feeling ashamed or embarrassed. We need to make people understand. 

Anxiety is so much more than having your random panic attack once in a while. It’s a daily struggle. 

You feel as if you’re drowning…


Unable to sleep…

You have dark thoughts…


You can’t breathe…

And, you can’t escape it…

This really doesn’t even scratch the surface. But, it does show a small portion of the daily struggles felt by someone suffering with Anxiety Disorder. 

If you have anxiety: 

Do not be afraid to talk about it. Do not feel ashamed. Do not be embarrassed to ask for help. Your story matters.

If you don’t have anxiety:

Please try to understand that even though we don’t look sick on the outside, doesn’t mean we aren’t struggling. Don’t be quick to judge. 
#endthestigma #speakup

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Why I’m not Making a New Year’s Resolution

It’s that time of year again! Time for all the resolution posts to come flooding in. I admire all you people that can make a resolution and stick to it! I, however, am just not one of those people. 

I have decided that 2018 is going to be an awesome year. I will try to make the best of every situation, and enjoy every second of life. But, no resolutions for me. Why? 
 The Pressure. 

Every year I make a resolution, then feel so obligated to keep it. Not to mention, people on social media saw that resolution, too. And, you know they’re watching. (Slightly joking, here) 

Sometimes, I make a resolution just because it’s what you’re “suppose” to do. Not this year! I’m livin’ the carefree life! 

I think I’ve just come to the conclusion, that life is too short to waste it on resolutions I may or may not keep. So, instead of making a resolution, I’m making a lifestyle change. I will be optimistic, excited, and patient with life. I will try to maintain a positive outlook, even when negative things are happening. 

I want to be the positive aspect in other people’s lives. I want to be a light for those in the dark. 

New Year, new me? No. Same me, but, with some slight improvements. 

So, here’s to a new year! Here’s to a fresh start for everyone. Here’s to making memories that last, and spending time wisely. And, here’s to all of you, who ARE making a resolution. I hope you see it through! But, if you don’t, that’s o.k., too. 

Don’t be so focused on the pressure of keeping your resolution, that you forget to live the best life you can! 

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Anxiety: A Life or Death Disorder

I never wanted to leave the house. 

I couldn’t control the racing thoughts going through my brain.

I slept constantly, because it brought peace.

I distanced myself from friends and family. 


Anxiety isn’t just panic attacks. 

Anxiety is depression. It’s racing thoughts. It’s feeling cut off from the world. It’s always second guessing yourself. It’s feeling like you’re having a heart attack in the middle of the night, out of nowhere. 

There are so many different components to Anxiety Disorder. It doesn’t effect any two people the same. 

You can’t always see anxiety on the outside. It’s an inward battle that takes over a person’s life. It takes ahold of your brain, and doesn’t let go. 


Definition of Anxiety Disorder: A group of mental disorders characterized by significant feelings of anxiety or fear. 

That’s a pretty broad definition. It says nothing about what causes it, where it comes from, or why it’s even a thing.

Why? Because, it’s different for everyone. It can be caused because of a person’s environment, an event that caused P.T.S.D., or even a chemical imbalance in the brain. It can manifest in a huge variety of different ways. 

Some people develop O.C.D. 

Some people have irrational fears. (i.e.: the dark, being sick, certain animals, or even leaving the house)

Some people have anxiety/panic attacks. Those come in a thousand different forms. 




Here comes the important part: 

Most people living with Anxiety Disorder are too afraid or ashamed to talk about it. That means they won’t ask for help. People living with Anxiety are at an increased risk for suicide, because they never got the help they needed. Insurance doesn’t always cover mental disorder care. It can be lonely and terrifying. 

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If someone you care about tells you they’re suffering from Anxiety or Depression, PLEASE do not dismiss them. 

Sometimes it’s a matter of life and death. 


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30 Odd and Random things to be Thankful for…

We’re nearly four days into November now, so I’m sure you started seeing the posts. You know which ones I’m talking about. “Day (insert number): today I’m thankful for (insert cliche here). 

Of course, I’m thankful for my husband, family, friends, etc. And, I’ve even done the “30 days of thanks” posts for the last few years. Thanks to the “on this day” feature that Facebook offers, I’ve noticed that I’ve said the same thing, in the same order, every year. 

So, this year I’ve decided to get a little more creative. I’m going to list 30 random and odd things I’m thankful for this season, with no explanations. I’m sure you’ll be able to relate to some, if not all of them, too.

Here we go:

1. Deodorant 

2. The person that shares their Netflix password

3. Mountain Dew 

4. Reruns of F.R.I.E.N.D.S. 

5. Leftover Halloween candy

6. Remote controls

7. Fuzzy socks

8. Christmas music

9. Flu and cold medication

10. Organized lists

11. Stars

12. Black Friday

13. Cyber Monday

14. The Fidget spinner phase is passing

15. Puppies and/or kittens

16. The wide variety of colors Crayola has to offer

17. Stranger Things 2

18. Ceiling fans

19. Ryan Rynolds and/or Gosling

20. The smell of Vanilla 

21. Toilet paper

22. Back rubs

23. Kit Kats

24. Candles

25. Bonfires

26. Pictures 

27. The pink color in the sky during sunset

28. Breath mints

29. Oversized sweatshirts

30. Earbuds/headphones 

How many can you relate to? 
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